5 Things 2016 Taught me

 1)  Following the straight path doesn't always getting me there the quickest.  Ok that's a bit vague but what I mean is that by learning to push myself into areas I wasn't ready for I found I moved on much faster than if I took it step by step.  It has left gaps which will need to be addressed but I think learning both in an orderly fashion and by going full speed ahead for me at least is  the best way.  It's incredibly HARD though, I've had to push through some very tough barriers and I'd be lying if I didn't say there were many tears shed in frustration.

2)  Mainly because of point one above, I need to find my confidence this year.  It's becoming impossibly hard to do all this with so much doubt hanging over me and virtually no support.  I need to figure out what will make me believe and combine that with my unrelenting & incredibly stubborn determination!!

3)  I finally found myself in music & by understanding Autism I made sense of so many things that had been confusing.  It's a long journey but I've taken my first steps.

4)  I REALLY love playing the drums - not as much as guitar.  The guitar is a part of me but drums are such good fun and I think everyone should have a go purely for therapy sake haha!  I will also confess whilst I always thought I would hate the bass guitar ...shhh don't tell anyone but it's quite fun!

5)  Lastly but not least, amazingly there are people who really believe in me (not just a little but an unbelievable amount) and that means the world to me.  I'm not used to that and it's a very special feeling, I'm incredibly grateful for them. I need to focus on these people and use point 2 above stop allowing people who claim to care about me hurt me.  That's going to be much harder than it should be.