The Story Of An Unlikely Dream
To Become A Musician
The Story Of An Unlikely Dream
To Become A Musician
Video is all done and ready to watch, not a great one but for a song I took 4 days to write and record as I said yesterday I don't want to fuss too much over it. The second half is much better than the first it flows nicer. And I think the message suits the music. *shrugs*!
Soundcloud Available Now Too!
I now have a Soundcloud account all set up so all the songs can go together. At this stage I'm still playing around of course so I have no intention of promoting it, thus I suspect the listens will remain low or more likely none but that suits me it's not great music! YET!
So if you do fancy popping over to hear all these songs together ... my first "ahem" 'EP' then you can find them all here - Soundcloud link.
This is the last YouTube video now for a bit because I need to write more songs!!!
This one actually has lyrics as well. Getting them exactly in time took some real effort but I'm pleased with the story, video and music overall. As always it's from someone (me!) who's only at the beginning of the learning curve so pinch of salt and all that but hopefully you'll enjoy it.
Maybe I'll have a go at getting that rock song done properly that would be a fun video to put together!!
Here you go then, my third and for now final video called Start Again.
I've put together another video, nothing special but I wanted to keep the finished "songs" going into my YouTube channel so that this story/journey stays tidy. I cant promise to show my journey from the bottom up without showing the rubbish that comes first. It's so nerve wracking doing it but it'll good for me. I need to learn to weather the storm if I`m really going to be putting my music into the world. It`s all well and good doing it here in my blog in audio files that not many people will ever listen to but in the real world there is a lot for someone like me to overcome. I need to start thickening up my paper thin skin now - at least I need to try. I'm looking forward to being able to laugh openly and comfortably at my own mistakes so this is going to be good for me and hopefully not too painful! ..... Hopefully 😳
This one is a bit of a tale actually so bear with me here. I was doing the vid when I realised how much the drums really REALLY bugged me and decided to re-record them and a couple of other areas I've been meaning to fix from the demo. Well I couldn't, no matter what I tried I could not get any drumming to fit. I was getting so frustrated and decided I had three choices, 1) abandon it and leave it forever as an audio file (but I love this try so that would be sad), 2) to say sod it and leave it as is (the timing was sooo bad but at least it would be there) or 3) begin again and redo the whole thing from scratch (I cannot tell you how overwhelming that option felt). In the end I took the plunge and decided to redo EVERYTHING (well 95% a couple if bits I copied across but not much at all) 😳😟 which meant transcribing my own guitar noodles because I couldn't remember what I'd done. I didn't expect my first transcriptions to be my own work. Too funny! Then had to plan out the song structure so it matched and I began to record starting with drums & rhythm guitar! I still had to redo the guitar at the end because when everything else is on it clashes but I think the result is overall much better. FAR from what I would like but it's time to archive this one and look forward again.
Here is the original if you want to compare.
Without any further ado I introduce you to the new and hopefully improved & retitled Lucky Seven! - now called Appetence For Tomorrow.
What does someone do when they're struggling with depression, anxiety and not sleeping?
They make a music video at 3.30am!
I've explained before that I suffer with depression, it's nothing I'm ashamed of it's simply something that's a part of who I am and sometimes I get sick. I've had the week from hell this week, it has rained and poured nightmare after nightmare and it's messed with my mojo big time. To give you an example this morning I had to get up at 3.30am after trying hard to get back to sleep for 40 minutes (and obviously failing!). By 7.30 I felt a bit better because I was very pleased with myself for putting together my first 'music video' and then what do I find? A Huntsman Spider - I'm scared of the tiniest of bugs and these things are colossal - it scared the BLEEP out of me. Hubby had left for work with the boys as it's a bring your kids to work day so all I had was my daughter. I woke her up bless her to rescue me and she saved me from the monster!! But that was just the last (at least I HOPE it's the last!) in a long chain of events that has left me feeling very vulnerable. My "spidey senses" are so refined I am 99% more likely to spot one than every other member of this house! - Bummer!
So while my head tries to reset itself (hopefully) I'm bouncing around instrument to instrument like a nut (imagine spending 10 hrs a day practising but not being able to concentrate on one thing for more than 10 minutes - it's TOUGH!) but I'm also being super creative which I'll take as compensation for feeling so bad.
So here it is my video - a very trippy and as my daughter reviewed it a "Strangely Satisfying" tune. Enjoy!
Learning Time Log
How long I've been learning as at at the end of Dec 2020.
What's This About?
One fateful day I decided to get guitar lessons. 5 years later I'm learning four instruments and trying to become a musician and songwriter. I've set a five year goal (Aug 2021) to create a very special song for my 25th wedding anniversary and this is a record of my crazy journey, weird thoughts, strange doodles and unapologetic music obsession! Enjoy!