Wanted - Full Time Teacher (not really - well yes really but not really)!!

You're thinking ... "she's lost it, yep, finally lost it"!!

Naaaa I'm the same level of loopy I was before, we're safe.  And, no, I don't need another teacher the two I have are simply wonderful.  But I wish I could have lessons every day!  If I spend any more of the little disposable income we have on lessons my husband will bury me alive haha!  He's supporting me so much already not to mention all the other lessons for him and the kids.

I wish wish wish I could have more though, the lessons seem to take so long to arrive and then poof they're over *sob*.  With the progress we're making there is so much opportunity that we're having to pick one area or another to work on and I'm left at the end pining for more.  It's frustrating too because I want to work on each area but some I'm left clawing at the walls over until next lesson .. and then of course it will be something else.

I'm so happy with what we're doing in both lessons at the moment and the support I'm getting is incredible.  This week I think Zak was practically my fan club bless him but seriously he's so positive and supportive it means the world to me.  The funniest thing is with all the lovely compliments he threw at me all I really wanted to know is .. is my soloing a bit better?  Remember to me lots of betters will eventually equal good.  I can't ever focus on anything except the next challenge or the skill I'm weakest at and how frustrated it makes me, knowing that I've done good, that I'm doing 'better' helps me more than words can explain.  I'm so focused on moving forward it really helps when they turn me around and remind me where I came from sometimes.

Anyway, I was so far out of my comfort zone today and yet it was one of the most amazing lessons.  He pushed me very hard today and threw lots of little challenges in, I don't doubt for a second that he softened them up to give me room (and he did let me noodle instead of soloing) but it did wonders for my confidence.  I'm still expecting to fall over on the next one but each challenge I meet with both these guys is another tiny brick removed from the wall I surround myself with.

I want to note one thing I'm pretty sure he does that I think is very very clever especially with me.  When he notices I'm doing something not quite right he doesn't tell me to adjust he will simply include it in the next challenge.  So if I'm sitting in one area he'll suggest we open to another, if I'm being too random he'll suggest I try to repeat an idea.  If my dynamics are not great he'll suggest we try to put some in.  Always positive reinforcement and it really does work for me, I assume he's going it consciously, he's a very smart cookie, but if not then I'm picking up on the message anyway and it's really helping.  He will flag when I'm not doing something right but that's when it's technical, so for instance we're learning a line and my timing is off or I'm not quite bending the note right but always subtle, always positive.  Very cool!