Creative & Tired

Question:

What does someone do when they're struggling with depression, anxiety and not sleeping?

Answer:

They make a music video at 3.30am!

I've explained before that I suffer with depression, it's nothing I'm ashamed of it's simply something that's a part of who I am and sometimes I get sick.  I've had the week from hell this week, it has rained and poured nightmare after nightmare and it's messed with my mojo big time.  To give you an example this morning I had to get up at 3.30am after trying hard to get back to sleep for 40 minutes (and obviously failing!).  By 7.30 I felt a bit better because I was very pleased with myself for putting together my first 'music video' and then what do I find?  A Huntsman Spider - I'm scared of the tiniest of bugs and these things are colossal - it scared the BLEEP out of me.  Hubby had left for work with the boys as it's a bring your kids to work day so all I had was my daughter.  I woke her up bless her to rescue me and she saved me from the monster!!  But that was just the last (at least I HOPE it's the last!) in a long chain of events that has left me feeling very vulnerable.  My "spidey senses" are so refined I am 99% more likely to spot one than every other member of this house!  - Bummer!

So while my head tries to reset itself (hopefully) I'm bouncing around instrument to instrument like a nut (imagine spending 10 hrs a day practising but not being able to concentrate on one thing for more than 10 minutes - it's TOUGH!) but I'm also being super creative which I'll take as compensation for feeling so bad.

So here it is my video - a very trippy and as my daughter reviewed it a "Strangely Satisfying" tune.  Enjoy!